The news wasn't encouraging this morning.
First of all, yesterday Addison awoke an hour into his nap crying very hard, which is really unusual for him. Later in the afternoon he started poking at his ear and saying, "Owwy. Cheek. Kissy." I immediately began to suspect that he had an ear infection. He hasn't had one in a long time, but he's had some nasal congestion and I know that the drippage can get caught in their little ear passages and get infected. Thankfully, I was able to get an urgent appointment at the doctor's for 10:20 this morning -- 10 minutes before my scheduled midwife appointment. As things worked out, I waited an hour to be seen by the midwife and Trey was able to get Addison in and out fairly quickly. Sure enough he has an ear infection in his right ear. They prescribed an antibiotic saying that it wasn't absolutely necessary. We could "wait it out" if we wanted...Please don't get me started on the general laissez-faire approach to healthcare here, which is as motivated by money, in my opinion, as the overly invasive US approach. **rant averted**
Secondly, my appointment...While I'm 2-3 cm dilated and well effaced, the baby is high, and the midwife thinks that he/she is in a posterior position, meaning face up instead of down (still head down, but facing the wrong way). This is in direct contradiction to what the ultrasound technician told us 3 weeks ago when we were at the hospital, and after the breech misdiagnosis, I'm not sure whether to trust what she tells me and assume the baby changed in the last 3 weeks or assume she's gotten it wrong once again. In her opinion, the baby's posterior positioning is part of the reason that labor has not progressed. She did sweep my membranes in the hope that it would cause a few strong contractions which would turn the baby face down and bring him/her further into my pelvis. Since she did that procedure, I've had some very strong contractions and I've been very crampy and sore. Of course, that has happened before, so my hopes are not high. The most disappointing news of all was that, because the baby is still high, she wants to wait the full 12 days to do the induction. She called the hospital and got it set up for February 26th. Despite a lot of pressing from us about why the arbitrary 12 days, the date stands.
Needless to say, I cried most of the way home. I am in a tremendous amount of back pain right now. My swelling is awful. Just when I think I've hit rock bottom, I find out there's a new low. But after a good cry and a long talk with my mom, I am doing better. Please keep praying that this baby will come soon. My body has reached a real breaking point. Physically I wonder how much more I can actually take, but I know that God has promised not to give us more than what we can bear. I struggle to understand what that means right now, but my prayer is that God will give me the grace over the next few days to wait on His timing and remain open to what He is trying to teach me right now.